Shifting Gears.

Well.. I am in the position where I am entertaining the thoughts of being with someone. Mr West and I haven't had a formal date yet but our brief encounter yesterday left a lasting impression upon me. Today we talked freely, again. He's making me reconsider my thoughts on staying to myself. I'm starting to get those butterflies that I like but I'm still keeping my guard up. Still, I find myself smiling a little more for no reason. Well, there's a reason behind it. I'm in the library's lab right now trying not to blush as I talk to him and I'm listening to the song he suggested I hear. Crap! I think I'm in like....

So, part of me is trying to keep myself at a safe distance. The other part of me is starting to day dream in class about him, like a fool. That's unacceptable. I am finding myself not feeling like I may compromise who I am when I'm around him. He's seen me at my worst. He knows I'm a little crazy ( not certifiable). He knows I'm on my guard and he's patient with me. I like that there is no pressure from him. He's the first guy that I met in person and felt like .... ok... what's the catch? I didn't feel like ..why me? I am glad I kept myself from falling for him before we met. For once, I kept things in perspective. We agreed to discuss what pushes each other's buttons. We take considerate steps. I have to keep my eyes open.

I still like the song he suggested.

I Wanna Be - Chris Brown