What a week.

I've been prolonging composing this post because I haven't had the energy. Last week was semi-stressful but I prevailed, I guess

First I had to deal with the electricity issue on Mon and Tues. Wed was normal.. My mother went to the hospital on Thursday and I stayed with her until she was released on Fri afternoon. Brando accompanied me to the hospital and was supportive without my asking. He stayed with me until I was granted an overnight pass and then we had dinner in the hospital.He even offered me his metro card so I could travel back. Today I went with him to the plaza to put together a gift for his mom. I picked out bath lotions,gels, a candle, pedicure set, body spray and bath salts and we made them into a gif basket without the basket. It came out pretty nice. I realized I am a little mean to him but it's his fault. He's like that geeky brother who doesn't listen at times. I ike our friendship though. Sat I spent with her and helped implement a balanced food plan. Sun, my pressure went up from being annoyed by loud music from basement boy for an hour. He's telling me to relax while he willie bounces and I have a throbbing headache. I didn't talk to anyone but Mr west and Brando this weekend. I was just not in the mood .

On top of that. me and Mr. West have been having these wonderful convos where we've been connecting and opening up to one another on a grand scale for almost a month now. He's so intelligent and best of all he is very genuine. He's sensitive and honest. He's thoughtful and attentive. His personality is much like mine which is great. We talk about every and anything and he's respectful and knows how to be subtle. We have a lot in common and we've joked that we were separated at birth. He just returned to school after five years like I did and he's studying nursing. I could see myself dating him and maybe even more. He opened up to me about his past and then I reciprocated. Only , my reciprocation was one of caution and fear. Like an idiot, I had word vomit and in telling about the ex and the bs to a minimum , I put my figurative walls up and basically told him that I am trying to stay emotionally distant. It was all a mad ramble that stemmed from the mood I got from talking about the past. I should have waited before I continued or not mention it at all. ANyway, he got worried that he was coming on too strong which he wasn't and he says he doesn't want to rush me. He's been mindful of my feelings and even though I let my scared and irrational side out, he did not back away or make things awkward. I don't have to wonder if he's interested although he worries If I am interested from time to time. There's more to it but so far it's been very interesting. He was already planning something for Vday but figured after my expression of my feelings that maybe it would be too much. He loves to surprise his woman and is very observant. I told him I sort of day dreamed about us and Vday after he mentioned it. He asked me to share and I did. He thought it was a sexy idea. I wanted to walk the bridge together since I'd be coming from school or maybe I'd cuddle up in my bed and talk to him hat night. He loved the bridge idea so I told him to keep it in mind,

I wish I hadn't been so emotional but he understood, I tried to not open up too much too soon after learning my lesson from others but he was being forthcoming so I let my guard down. Sort of. I'm just thankful that he is the type of guy that can communicate and not make me question his intent or state of mind. He reassured me that he understands how I feel and we can take things as slow as I'd like. I reassured him that it was all me and he wasn't rushing in the least, and he wasn't. I like how he handled it. We bumped heads over a subject two weeks ago and it was sort of cute how we handled that as well. We both apologized and I we both were calm and kind about it. We talked it out and in the end we both began liking the other even more because of the way we handled the disagreement. He wasn't harsh in his defense and I refrained from sending the wrong tone and we realized we misunderstood one another but worked it out and things were even more harmonious as a result. Even when we got a tad testy, we both put our pride to the side and had an ego check and apologized. I really like him even when I tried not to feel him too much. He really likes me and has run figuratively naked in front of me. We both agreed to learn from our past and take it slow and it's been working so far. We'll see what happens. This is one that I don't want to rush at all. I am not getting any red flags or gut feelings even when I think I should and that worried me, but I realized that I was subconsciously trying to sabotage a good thing by holding back and pushing him away. Fortunately, he's understanding and patient. We agreed to began by being friends and start hanging out when the weather gets warmer.. We'll see. I am just going to take my time and go slow with this one. Just let it cook like a nice roast.

School starts back in 10 days. Shit!! I have classes Mon- Sat. There goes my life.