Again- so stressed

My day started of well with a good morning text from Mr.Clean - I need to call him somethine else- and then my wakeup call. I forced myself to get up and get busy by doing everything under the sun but studying for this history exam. He picked me up again today and we went to have lunch before going to school. The good thing is we go in for the same time and he's willing to come get me despite my being out of the way. Anyway, so we're eating lunch/breakfast and time was running out on us so we took the food to go. I gave myself only a half hour to study/get definitions for my exam. I sort of knew most but wasn't as 100 % certain as I was the last time. I don't even know if I bullshitted the essay but I feel like I did. That's so unlike me. So, I got my history paper back and I got a 99-A. Now I see why I lost the one point but I'm not worrying about it anymore.I am more so worried about this damn test. I know I passed but I don't like my performance. Am I becoming a perfectionist? Or have I? I was actually upset about that 1 point yesterday and had to force myself not to think about what could it have been. Now I am stressing over how well I did on the test. I don't need anything to drop my perfect avg in that class. That's one A I was counting on. I can't do anything about it for two weeks so I might as well just let it go.

Yet, I have all of this tension in my neck and back. I learned that the NSCS is my school's chapeter with the Honor Society. It's a very big deal. I feel overwhelmed. The UAPC center finally got my documents for my transfer to Baruch. I'm feeling anxiious now. I'm thinking I should have gotten the transcript from tech but does it matter? They can see my grades here... Will I get in? and iif I do.. I may not go until spring. Vincent-formerly Mr. Clean- says he supports me in what ever decision I make but I have to do what is best for me and keep my goal in mind and then he aid as if I have to tell you that..you're already on top of things. He siad he'll tap my shoulder if he thinks I am holding myself back. I like that in a man. He likes that he doesn't have to push me and I'm already going for mine.

I don't even feel like I have to watch him but I will. Last night we talked about friendships, intimidation and the bs, building solid ground, personal things and letting things go where they may..just more eye to eye stuff.