Ain't it funny?

It's amazing how life seems to work itself out and things fall into place. I was in church today talking with the sisters and Seyon accidently brushed my foot while sweeping with the broom. There is an old superstition that says you won't get married if someone sweeps your feet and so I joked about him having to pay for my Match membership for life. Sister Aileen- maybe in her early thirties - jumped in and told me about the amount of weirdos that are on that site and other dating sites that are supposed to help facilitate dating. Her girlfriend's experiences with these advertised catches was her source.I tried to defend it to a point considering the good friends that I've come out with from dating but then I was reminded of the socially awkward people. Though, half of my defense was you can meet the same type of people on the street. I didn't really care too much because she was right to a point. Then something else was said that made so much sense. Ayesha was saying she needs to cleanse herself and get herself in order so she can stop attracting trash or the wrong guys. I laughed but then I told her she is right. In the past, I've attracted all types and none fit what I was looking for in a man. A REAL man. My requirements were pretty basic but and important to me but these guys weren't making the cut. I didn't tell her about recent events but I thought to myself how things just fall into place.

Last year, I was still holding on to old baggage and dealing with open wounds. I was finding myself and trying to start a new direction. This year, I find myself in such a different place. I'm happy with life and how much I've accomplished in a short time. I know who I am and what I want and it shows. I have let go of the past which only held me back and I opened myself up to new possibilities without reservations. When I finally decided a few weeks ago to stop holding myself back I started attracting more positive catches and people in general and it has been because of my positive energy.

Ayesha was right and our prayer leader hit on this today as well. Sometimes, people need to check themselves. It's funny how many guys I've dated who seek out someone and when it doesn't work out they blame everyone else. No one understands them. Not even them. My favorites are the ones like Ty or Mr. West who in their "maturity" lash out in petty ways when they are often the source of their own discontentment through their cowardice or lack of understanding reality. I love a guy who just stops communicating without an explanation like Mr. West. It shows their true character. They don't know how to be real with a woman or how to deal with a woman regardless of the situation. They find themselves in the same position over and over again and the reason is? It's everyone else. Some of them would call themselves a man but they have no clue. Not a one. The reality is they need to grow up and man up. Look in the mirror and do a self evaluation was the message of the day.

We talked about " You are who you attract" and it has never been more true. I have long changed my view on dating and have closed my eyes to anything less than what I deserve for the sake of holding back or settling. I kept attracting guys who were stuck, confused, or just not it. They weren't impressing me because most of them didn't even know who they were just like when I was finding myself. I got tired of going in circles and second guessing myself. When I did my self evaluation I decided to get my self in order emotionally and mentally and be free of all negativity if I was going to put myself out there for real in hopes of meeting someone who deserves me. I didn't bat an eye if something didn't work out because I knew it just wasn't it and I could do better. People fall off for a reason.