I give up..

Send the troops home. I've brought out the flag. I am no longer in the battle of "Find that guy". I was not supposed to be in the forefront anyway. Yet, I managed to bring my little brigade over to two websites, armed with hope and curiosity. Now, I surrender. I give up! Not after spitting in love's face, of course. I even kicked it in the shin. I punched like in the throat (Remember, I am not supposed to be looking so just bear with me). I've changed my profile around, added pics, made myself more witty, more down to earth and blah. So you know what, I don't know what it is that seems to be repelling these people. It's like I have some sort of force field around me that makes them bounce back. Either way, it's OK. Perhaps I am being impatient, fine. It shouldn't matter since I don't really want to deal with a guy, I just want to flirt, but to hell with it all. I put my profile to non -search able on one site and I am changing the other to the same(as soon as my three day trial is up). I don't want to hear a thing about love or guys. They are all females with penis'. It's like they're dysfunctional or disabled or something unusual. I don't know what they are and I don't care to either.

I mean, I'm a good woman. I'm smart,thoughtful,romantic funny and ambitious. I have my own ends. I am great with kids and down to earth. I'm cute. What gives? Are they intimidated? I've played down my "what I do and have" as to not scare them away. So what gives?! Why do I care when I don't have time anyway.. I guess I love having options and I am tired of the same old slices. Now that I am considering dating someone seriously and letting my guard down, it is hard as Hell to find someone worthy. Blah!