Why am I afraid of so many things

Why am I afraid of traveling and being alone in another state or country? Afraid something may happen to my mother and I'll really be without someone who loves me in this world or afraid of being on my own and facing rejection.
How do I overcome this fear of being unloved and alone?
I have.

Why do I attend to attract the same type of man?
Bad manners, no follow through, no college, act like jack asses,never puts me first. Act like bad boys. Doesn't follow rules, goes against the grain. Capable of being normal and mature and kind at some points but then turn around and act dysfunctional at the next -I've just realized that I am dating guys who are like my younger brother.

Why am I afraid of the nice/good guy and getting into a relationship?
Afraid of being loved and left. I am afraid of being loved and left again and damaged and tremondously hurt and abandoned again like I felt when my father left me, and then like when Brian left me. So I seek out bad boys who don't make me a priority like he did and so I'll always have someone to fight with and so I'll never be able to get close to them or let them get close to me. i attract guys who treat me mediocre I am afraid of losing a guy who will treat me like the world. Like I lost my father.

I'm 25 ys old and I'm having a break through.

I don't have meaningful relationships with men because I don't have a physical,tangible father. I have a memory of a good father and of being spoiled and treated well, but I don't have a tangible, supportive male role model in my life.

My brother isn't any better either, but it isn't his fault. You can't expect him to be a man if he doesn't have anyone to show him how to be one.

I've had an excellent and loving female role model, which explains why I cling to her so much.#fearoflosingonlylove #mamasgirl.

People would say "I'm sorrry" at his mention, and I'd say "For what? I was young, no big deal. I'm ok, I have my mom" #nowiknowy #thankyou

I am a 25 year old woman who still feels like a little child,, who is not finished with college, who only ha one person who loves me. Truly loves me. I don't have a strong extended family. I don't have a strong male relationship as in friendship or romantic or family. It's just me, my mom and God.

My relationship with my brother is filled with some love and some disrespect, bad treatment. Like my relationship with other men. How do I break this? Love my brother without fighting him?
How do I get to a successful relationship with a successful man who is worthy of me if I don't now what I'm worth. I do but how do I get there and how do I change?

How do I deal with the fact that I'm the only person that I know without a father figure in their life? Or a strong, supportive male figure? I'm 25 and I haven't had a successful relationship. How do I change that?

I associatd my friendships with the kindergarten group as something like a family becuse I've known them from a period when my father was around and my life was stable and loving, and I've known them for most of my life. So that's why I felt so betrayed and hurt when they befriended someone who hurt me. That's why I felt a lost of loyalty and love, especially to somone who I had already lost loyalty and love to.

I have had trust issues after being screwed over in my mind by friends , especially the close ones. Abandonment.

No more

Do I cling to those frriendships or build new ones and work on the ones that I have and try to make them better and more meaningful and less at odds? I need to evaluate my approach to friendships and the sincerity of it all. Am I really loved or just merely tolerated? Both

Why have I been such a bitch to female friends and in general?
Now I know why I've had so much aggression towards both sexes. Why do I stay around bitches?
They have to go.

Why do I not trust people?
Easy.
How do I build healthy , trusting relationships?
I have to read up on it.

I had money issues.
I let it be my security blanket and then when it was tied up I didn't know how to cope. I had to be dependent on my mother. Now I have to learn to let myself and God be my sense of security and not to depend on money or people because it can always run out and they can always die.

My second issue is being afraid of money and its corruption.
After letting my money get tied up and being temporarily broke, I had become afraid of money and its problems associated with it like greedy people, shady people, the way it changes you etc. I had a fear of having it and then losing it. I've learned to not spend every penny if not necessary. I have to re-learn to be dependent on myself and no one else. I've had to learn to be humble.

I have a fear of dating a guy on my level. Or had one.
I have never dated a guy who was in college. I've dated college drop outs across the board with Brian being the exception, but when I told him that I may have to leave school, he broke up with me. Might of been related. Maybe not.
Either way, I've dated drop outs across the board and even someone who didn't even have a hs diploma. #why? Fear of looking like a failure. I've dated guys who weren't doing anything or stuck in dead end jobs because that is where I was.
Now should I date guys who are in school or guys who are graduates. I feel like guys with degrees aren't checking for women working on them , no matter how smart I am and even if they were, we are in two different places experience-wise. I need to find someone who is in school and about something . I'm admittedly to afraid to date someone who is further along than I am because I think that he will probably find someone who already has her shit together.

Not anymore.

I need to get over the hang up of not being good enough or smart enough for a guy who is "better than me". Maybe then I'll start attracting decent men seemingly like my library friend. Out of all the college educated guys in the school, I pick the college drop out with four children, three baby mamas , and a bad boy attitude.

No more.

Why am I always searching for love and not just running into it? Because I don't have a clear idea of what I want. I have to make notes of signs to watch out for.