Book me first class.. I need to get away,

I want to jump in the water. No thinking. Just jump... Forget the rules and go against the grain. I don't know why. Maybe my spontaneity has been stifled for too long. I've been playing the good girl role and walking on that cautious line. Conforming to what's expected. It's tedious. I'm starting to feel like maybe the issue wasn't a need to be responsible and follow the norms of society. The school thing is fun and fine but I am so used to my freedom. I'm non-traditional for a reason. Fuck the rules!! Maybe who I am is normal and everyone else are just drones. I've been going against myself... Going against the free spirit that doesn't plan life but makes it happen...making no apologies for who I am or what happens. Maybe it's because I haven't gone away since D.R. No skinny dipping. No body shots. No spontaneous rendezvous at random locations in the city or scandalous vacations with friends. No partying until the morning (breakfast included). No running across the bridge or jet skiing in the Caribbean. No waking up in a beachfront villa or playing "I never" with a bottle of Mountain Gaye rum.... God, I miss car racing guys down the pkwy. I miss renting cars and driving for hours on end to random destinations just for the hell of it. I miss random trips to the towers with the gang. Or the hotel parties at the Marriott Marquis.. The Westin... even Double Tree. I miss hopping a plane to Atlanta. I miss being around big groups of crazy ass people!! I thrive off of socializing and I'm dying from being in this fucking tight ass goody two shoe shoes. I need my frigging 3 inch pumps and some keys to something fast. I need to be on the edge again for just a little bit. I think Cancun is definitely in the calendar for my 25th. I'm going stir crazy. I swear the little devil in me is rocking back and forth in a corner, rubbing her hands and digging those stilletos into me and she's just whispering repeatedly "Mazel Tov, bitches. Mazel Tov." There's a little voice inside me screaming ... dying to be free and wild the fuck out! I need to wild the fuck out!