Sweet sanity. My how I've missed you.

I'm finally back to feeling more ... stable.. for lack of a better word. Enough about that though. Down to the Nitty Gritty. Color me surprised!! I got a 3.75 on my informative speech. Now here is the kicker: The speeches rate from 0-5. You lose a point if you do not perform on your assigned day. So since I was absent I lost one point ...which means I actually earned a 4.75. "One of the top grades in the class"- Professor. Oh, and I'm still happy. I thought I earned a 3 without the point deduction. I was so nervous but apparently I did better than I thought. Hooray!!

Next, last night, Mr Russian asked me to read his English essay. He and I are the most active students in the class. His thesis wasn't clear and he wasn't happy with the fact that the professor didn't explain it? I don't know but we stayed there for about 10 extra minutes with the professor discussing how he could get it right because he and I both earned a B+ on the last essay and the midterm because we missed the point of the thesis or did not make a clear one. Now I understood this after we took the midterm and received our second essay back. The prof wrote a detailed message to let me know what I did wrong and still encouraged my writing. She loves my narrative style. I'm so oblivious.. half of the time I don't realize that I'm doing it. Anyway, once I read her comments on the essay and talked with Mr Russian on the way home, we both knew we made the same mistake on the midterm, but last night she said she won't count it as heavily because everything else we've done has far outweighed it. I hadn't even looked at my grade and then I was shocked it was a B+. I thought I was going to get a D. Now I get it and now I have to write essay three over. I don't know why I didn't realize that the point of the class was to know how to formulate a proper thesis and then support it in the essay. I think it came about gradually as all the assignments did not ask for it. Either way, I have it now and she said she wants to see us get it because that is what the final will be based on and we are her best students. I got it. I don't know if he did..though he says he did.. but I have it ingrained in my head now because B+'s are not cute! I emailed her when I got in to express my joy on the election and relay what happened and she emailed me back, equally excited.

Anyway, I got a message from 43 things from someone who was inspired by my stop procrastinating entry. Only thing is.. I have been slipping up. I don't know if it's winter or what.. but I find myself racing against the clock lately. I need to get it together , so I am doing my hw in advance tonight. I have a psych exam on Fri. I get my socio exam results tomorrow. I have to have my speech outline and hw ready for Mon and then this essay by the morning.It's really not much but I need to get it out the way to save myself the run around.

I'm going to be totally random/ I like the people in my speech class. Everyone is so open and friendly..supporting each other. We were all talking about what our atmosphere was like last night.They're interesting people. Being with BFF and Mel was amazing. Things still feel surreal. I recanted the story to my classmates and they listen with their eyes gleaming and say "me too" by the time I say we were jumping in the streets. Lol, it was happening all around the city. I hear there was march on Flatlands. Even Flatbush was civilized. So amazing. Harlem too. A new America and hopefully a better one.

In other news.. I am stuck here until 9:45. I am waiting on a book and reading one again for class tomorrow. Anyway, in other news.. I find myself feeling like I am interested in something different. It's hard to explain. I'm not afraid of anything right now. I am open to all challenges of all sorts. I came across the student government office by mistake on my way to the library when I got lost from trying a new entrance. So these two guys outside the office were helping me find the exit .. one was flirting while the other made it verbally clear that he was going to block.. especially since the first dude had a girl. He wasn't my type either way, but I realized that I recognized the second guy from the website. He's the student body president and was very kind. Now today I was talking with Gaby and the girls and they were telling me that we already know that I will have one of the highest grades in the class because I am good at speaking and very personable-their words. So I joked that I wanted to run for a position in the student government and they got hyped ..more than I expected.. and told me I should. It's nice to think about and I would get involved with the school to some extent but I think I may wait for Baruch. I don't know. I came in here thinking that I'd go to class , not make eye contact, take care of my business and be out, but I find myself mixing with so many different people and actually liking them and the school's atmosphere. It's nothing like what I was dreading and imagining. Maybe I'll start a club or something. I won't be here for long but it doesn't mean that I shouldn't participate in the school's community. I think I just might..