Another month... another menstrual take over.

I'd like to say that I survived the week of the 21st to the 27th, but it would only be a bold face lie. Granted, I didn't bawl my eyes out for the usual reasons (That's three months in a row.. Yay!)... I did end up being ridiculously emotional. This blog speaks for itself. There's a pattern of confusion,sexual frustration and the undeniable need/want for something more . It goes back and forth but it only heightens at this time of the month. Ever other post is about life in general. You can see the shift between "normal" and "get that woman some Midol". Now, I'm tethering on the edge of irrationality. It always ends with me being annoyed. By tomorrow, I'll be back to my normal, happy go lucky self...nonchalant and not waiting for anything. For right now though....I am so frustrated. I don't even know why but I guess it falls into the whole irrationality thing. I've let myself open up a lot lately and I don't quite regret it... I just don't know if it's just me.. I feel like I'm developing crush-like feelings and I was ok with it. I'm not nervous or backing away. I mean I like the way that we've been connecting and he's been making me feel comfortable ....and I think..thought ...he was feeling that too....but it is starting to seem like it's just my imagination or he's backing away. God, I feel so Pre-teen right now... I totally hate the unknown and feeling like this in general..I guess Floetry's Butterflies is right in a sense...but now it's making me think about a book title turned big screen movie.. and foolishness... I don't even know why I'm tripping.... over someone I hardly know... and so what if I may sound irrational... I'm excused..and I'm cryptic for a reason. I can't wait until tomorrow.