Eye on the prize.

Oh lucky me. I had a midterm in English and received my second paper back. I got a frigging B+. Now, what the FUCK is a B+?! I damn near had a fit in the hallway when I looked at my paper.. I remembered where I was so I let myself gasp loudly instead. I can't do a B+. Sorry. It's bull. Stupid me did the paper an hour before class in the library under the impression that we'd be able to revise it and get a better grade. Ha! I read the syllabus in class and realized that we only have two revisions and that was not one of them. Great! This is the one time that I would have been happy with a A-. Now I have an A and a B+ in her class and God knows how I did on this midterm. I don't even want to think about it because just like the last paper, I forgot to form a detailed thesis. I completely missed it! That was the main thing that kept me from an A and she said I could have been more detailed. Great. Add oil to the fire, I was sick this weekend and it spilled over to Monday when I had to do my speech on the fishcakes. Well, I burned half of them and coughed my lungs up... no..really.. they're in the fridge.. I have to deal with my fate tomorrow. I'll be damned if I don't get an A in that class. I've done everything else and I'm always participating, so hopefully she'll have mercy on me and let me make it up. Sociology is fine but I have an exam this Thursday after coming in late for class last week. I can never do that again because I was lost for the first 10 minutes. I have been re-reading my notes and trying to be prepared so I can keep my self at an A. I feel like I am messing up and I need to get it together. I'm slightly losing motivation. I don't know why. I need to not be distracted and get back into my corner in the library. I managed to get a 16/20 on my last psych exam but I did not even read the chapter or study which is so unlike me. I have to get back into the library and start taking notes. Had I done that I'd most likely aced the test. Slipping up. There are still two months left in the semester. I need to refocus and stay above a damn A- in everything if I want that 4.0. What the hell is a B?? That my second one so far.I wont be happy with anything less than an A for final grades so I better stop kidding myself by sliding and get shit done early. Only one semester left until Baruch. I'm getting too comfortable in this school. Making friends and ish.Talking to people. I need to remember that my time there is temporary. Frig . I need to start carrying my heavy leather organizer again. That way I won't be forgetting little things like I have been doing. I just need to re-organize myself. My priorities are still in order but I've lost a little of my momentum. I think I need a new challenge. Yes.... I need to set a mini goal for the next two weeks. Keep setting those reading goals like I did before in my notebook to finish chpts early. I need to do something to keep from falling into this comfortable rut. I'll get back to you when I figure out my new short term goals..