Good Morning, Monday!

Well, well. It is finally time to get back to the old routine. No more Jewish Holidays or false discoverer days to take me away from my schedule. I have two exams this week and have yet to crack a book. I'm not too worried. I scored a 17/20 on my first Psych exam. Scores ranged from 5-19 and many were single digits , he said. I knew I had about three wrong and I was right.
Anyway, during my free time Mara and I reconnected with our third wheel Brando. I must remember to update him in the slices. Back in the day when Mara's mailing address was in the states, she, he and I were thick as thieves. Our friendship came somewhere between Frasier and Niles Part1 and Frasier and Niles Part 2. We did almost everything together.

The last time I saw him was randomly at his job a few months back. I walked into the Circuit City and gave him a long "you look familiar" look and then we did the "oh shit!" stares and he gave me a discount on this vga cord that is now making my screen pink and I took his card. For some reason he thought Daley#1 (who was with me at the time) was my brother. I took his card and called , but we never got in touch. The last time that I saw him before that was a few years ago when I rented cars for the summer. We picked him up to go see Meet The Fockers at Linden. BFF and Frasier joined us in separate cars. Brando started acting ridiculous and by the end of the night I had kicked him out of my car.

Well, Sunday night, I had just gotten out of the shower and put on my homemade honey,milk and sugar mask when Mara calls me and tell ms to go outside. I know it's not her unless she is superwoman and flew here from Tampa. So, I immediately ask if Brando's outside. Sure enough he was and in his car waiting for me. I tell her to let him know that he will have to wait five mins as I just put the mask on and I'm not dressed. I hate when guys drive by unannounced.

Fifteen minutes later I greet him with a hug at his car. He tells me to get in so we can go grab a bite on him. I say OK. Let me get my keys. We drive but I'm not hungry. I don't eat fast food and I've already eaten. He gets something from the Chinese store turned taco=Chinese store thanks to their great competition across the street. We go to Canarsie pier and talk for like two hours about life,love, God, work, etc. I find out why he was acting a fool the day that we went to the movies. It turned out that he convinced himself that BFF and Frasier were me and Mara's dates and he was a fifth wheel. After I lmao'd at him and called him a fool, I explained the nature of our relationship with BFF and Frasier. Best friends! He felt foolish, of course. I told him to ask questions next time. Never make assumptions. Eventually we were freezing and returned to the car where we talked some more. I have to say that he has come a long way from the annoying immature guy he used to be and he somewhat favors Rick Fox. Maybe it's just the hair. Anywhoo, he buys me a Corona and we chill some more and chat . Lot's of laughing and foolish jokes but we're adults now. I didn't find myself wondering "Why am I chilling with this fool?" . No, I had a good time. He even felt comfortable opening up with me like back in the day. Anyway, he drove me home and told me he enjoyed catching up and call him tomorrow. We joked some more and I could actually consider him a man. Wow. Well , we talked tonight and he told me about the girl he is crushing on and I see his shyness. How cute. Mara is happy that the three of us are all onthe same page again and so am I. People come into your life like seasons , each with their own purpose. What's his?

Now it's Monday and I have a lot to catch up on. I haven't slept yet and I don't think I will really.I set up an email on google between bff and the girls so we can keep in touch with one another until we hang out on Halloween. Everyone has been in their own world. I was telling Brando about the ones who did me dirty and how I had to be the bigger person and just let them go. I was relating to his own people trouble. I do believe that you are the company you keep and I am only interested in being in the best of company. I thought it would be hard since they were such a big part of my life, but I have Mara, BFF and the ladies, Julie Parker and the girls, and my sanity and myself. I feel so much more calmer and normal without them in my life. We may have known each other since elementary but I felt like we weren't growing collectively. Their time in my life is up. We were still stuck in the young phase ,lots of negativity and tension, jealousy and bs-stress. When I am outside of them, I am normal and I don't feel like I am fighting to keep sane. So, I choose to just stay outside of them ,period. If it doesn't kill you then it will only make you stronger. I'm doing perfectly fine, if not better without them. With friends like those , who needs enemies? Either way, I don't keep enemies or people I knowingly can't trust around me. I've also noticed that it's been two months since I've felt anything for Brian and I realize that I have finally given myself closure to the point that I am not even interested in thinking about anything pertaining to him but if I ran into him I would maintain my poise and let it show that he's the past. My bitterness against the whore has subsided. They all played their roles in my life showing me who is who and it's better to know now than find out later.


Jazzy is going to LA for a six weeks for work. Suzzie and I are making plans for the weekend.

Fri, I went to the movies with this guy from my class. It was so random. I was going to the theater or Barnes and Noble by myself after class and we saw each other at the stop light, Started chatting and decided to go together. He's not my type and I can't remember his name but we had a good time. Earlier in class Freddy was flirting with me again. He came late fri but we talked during the break and he was such a gentleman. When we were returning in the room he said beautiful ladies first. I like that he doesn't try to spit game. He's genuine. He noticed my perfume and shared his Mand M's. I asked for three and he gave me 7. I told him he was an enabler. Lol. He's cool though. Felix is as self involved as I thought. We talked too but he's immature.

Julie has gotten me hooked on this site OKCUPID. I went for the quizzes but they sucked me in with this algo-whatever. The more questions you answer-the more your match percentage raises. You know me, always trying to out do myself. Anyway, I've met a lot of interesting people thus far.

I am starting to listen to Mara and wish she would move up here, but her plan doesn't involve her man. She wants to come back to NY and live as roommates and not have to be in a relationship. I told her I can't co-sign to her madness.

Back to Monday- I am glad that I can get back into the groove of a stable routine. I know this entry is one long, unstructured mess, but it's 7 30 and I haven't slept yet. I'll do better tonight.

I should take a nap..